My life is about to change.
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My life is about to change.

Well, what I feared the most is about to come to pass. My landlord is not going to renew my lease. She says she going to have family move in. So, after more than a decade she is giving me to the boot. I hate bullshit life this. I have no idea how I will manage this change. But I will try. It's either I move and find an apartment, or I become homeless. But before that ever happens, I'd take plenty of insulin to end it all. Trust me when I say, I will, because I will. I don't…
It’s been a little bit
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It’s been a little bit

As always, I don't have a lot today. Or anything that is really worth reading. I am just obsessing over the same things I do. I know that the future is scaring me. I am not prepared to get old. I have no one to help or care for me, if something major happens. I have also been obsessing about my rent and hoping my landlord will renew my lease. I men she has since 2008, I don't see why she wouldn't unless she goes for a huge increase in rent. (Money grab.) Then I am fucked. I won't know…
Boring Weekend So Far
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Boring Weekend So Far

Hello, It's been a boring weekend so far. No excitement, no plans. I did go to Publix and bought some soda and piece carrot cake. Yummy. I had a small piece after I had a little bit of lunch. Some days I wish I had an eating disorder. I'd like to be skinny and desirable. Well, we know that is not going to fucking happen. We have had a lot of rain today. Where I live the roof was going to be re-roofed, (I do not know if that is a word) but because of the rain they will now…