I have no damn clue what I want to really say at the moment. I am annoyed with certain things in life right now. Been going through a ton of different emotions. A few things are impacting me more than I thought they would but other wise I seem to be okay. Granted I am one moody bitch lately. Not putting up with shit from Facebook peeps who think they are more than they are. I stand by my comments. TikTok is not a job for some. gyrating half naked, or whatever to videos. While they can be fun and sexy for some. That is not a job. Now some might use it for legit businesses but clearly if it gets banned you other social media platforms to share you message about your business or by doing dumbass, lip-sync and stupid ass dance moves. I’ve seen many in passing shared via the internet and they are just stupid. Sure, maybe I am slightly jealous that I don’t have the looks, the body, the talent. Here’s the difference. I know I am ugly and brace it. Because that is what I am. There is not way around that. I am perfectly aware of the type of person I attract (no one literally) Well, I guess there is. I could go to the gym daily. I should have probably did that since I do not have a job, since I was let go in October. I wasn’t fired. I was released because the department I was apart of was eliminated and our jobs shipped overseas for cheaper labor. No hard feelings. I was with the company close to 25 years. I got a great severance package that has all my bills paid through March 31st of NEXT year and I also still have health insurance at no cost till 12/31/2025 of this year. And when I get a job, then I will their plan but not until next year. SO, some of you who got you panties in a wad over what I said on Facebook about TikTok and some people needing to get a job, can kiss my ass! I SAID WHAT I SAID and I stand by it. “Influencers” are the dumbest fucking gimmick this side of hell. It’s nothing more than advertising and I think it’s just stupid. I guess we can thank them for the Tide Pod challenge. Way to go “Influencers”. So that’s that and I am done with it. Because again, I SAID WHAT I SAID, now get the fuck over. Your stupid ass TikTok is back and probably will not be going anywhere. Enjoy giving your info to the Chinese government. (Maybe).
Anyway, what else do I want to say. I turn 50 this year, currently no job, but that is about to change. I have one started on 01/30/2025 and I am happy for it. Also still looking for other jobs. It’s annoying that is has taken nearly 3 months to get a job started. All my office equipment arrived today. Got it all setup, expect for plugging all the power in. Today alone I have done two applications for other places of employment. Some are work from home and some are in person. I dread in person but if I land the right role I will do it.
Mentally things are alright. I have had a lot of headaches lately. Also, had a hearing test. I go back next month for hearing aids. They are mainly to help with the ringing in my ears and also a little bit to help me hear the nonsense people spew. I’ve also gained some weight which I will need to shed. I am no model and have been single forever. Also, I haven’t met anyone at all. That is weighing on me. I’d love to be with someone and have that mental and physical intimacy. Right now I don’t have that at all and haven’t had for many years. Also, it doesn’t help that my type 2 diabetes has made some impacts to that part of my life also. Makes me want to just end it all at times. Sometimes I am just that frustrated with life and it’s not like a lot of people would understand. So, when I can and feel like it I will write it out here for me. It helps me feel better when I go into a dark place, which I have been in lately. I will come out of it soon. Should probably see my doctor or actually talk about it. But I digress. Maybe I should start drinking again. I could go get a bottle of rum and drink till I made some bad choices.
Also I should note it is cold in Florida. It seems it is going to be cold all week. I will attempt to NOT use the heat unless I have to. It is currently 68 in the apartment and I have a Cardigan sweater on to help me a little warm and not so called. HOPEFULLY, I will have a small power bill. I wasn’t bad for December. Anyway, let me wrap it up. Thank you to the one or two people who might read it. Much appreciated.
Much love,
Jackamus
